a body that refuses to be rational
you would never understand the horrors ive been through. you'd never know the discipline my body has been subjected to. there are no signs that show the exhausting negotiation between hunger & restraint, i'm so sorry for having a body that refuses to be rational. this however, is not accidental at all. its the result of abuse throughout the years. unfortunately, ive been treating the appetite as something to govern. before i read kant, i already knew the gist of what i was getting into. restraint is virtuous, and control is proof of worth. kant says, moral dignity comes from following reason rather than desire. desiring isn't wrong but it cannot be trusted to guide action. the moral subject must step back from inclination in order to act freely. bulimia solidifies this idea. indulging becomes a moral mistake, purging is the corrective gesture an d wa y to reclaim control over a body that refuses to be rational. what looks like a loss of control from the outside i...